Grief and Loss · Holidays

Empty Due Date

It’s been a bit since I’ve written… I suppose you could say that the aftermath of his first birthday took all I had just to survive this far. It’s a new level and a new wave of grief…. that’s for sure. And one day if I find how, I’ll try to explain it, but for… Continue reading Empty Due Date

Grief and Loss · Holidays

One Year

   One year ago my beautifully handsome, strong, perfect son was in my arms. His tiny fingers curled around mine. His baby-soft wavy hair brushed my cheek when I kissed his head. His tiny body rested in my arms.A year ago I became a mama again… but this time to a baby I couldn’t take… Continue reading One Year

Grief and Loss · Holidays

“Mary Christmas”

Originally posted on Raindrops of Hope:
??”Merry Christmas” The words just don’t ring so true anymore. Just as “congratulations” escapes my vocal cords at whatever the most recent pregnancy announcement is… So these two words escape me now. In the heart of the holiday season, they fail me. And I stand there dumbfounded and silent…

Holidays

“Mary Christmas”

  “Merry Christmas” The words just don’t ring so true anymore. Just as “congratulations” escapes my vocal cords at whatever the most recent pregnancy announcement is… So these two words escape me now. In the heart of the holiday season, they fail me. And I stand there dumbfounded and silent in the moments following the common… Continue reading “Mary Christmas”

Grief and Loss · Holidays

Live Your Smile :)

I have to admit that I was completely and utterly dreading the holidays. And so, I sought advice from a friend who is years out walking this same road we are all treading, and felt it important to share her perspective as one who has “made it”… Quite possibly a perspective we could all use… Continue reading Live Your Smile đź™‚

Grief and Loss · Holidays

The Thanksgiving Dinosaur

The holidays have arrived…officially. The radio stations started playing their holiday jingles 26 days ago. The Christmas decor at Target has been steadily growing  since the week of Halloween. Christmas lights glisten on houses and from from windows sporadically in the dark as we pass by in the car, and the Christmas trees sit waiting… Continue reading The Thanksgiving Dinosaur

Grief and Loss · Holidays

Words

I am not ready for Christmas this year. To be perfectly and completely raw and honest- I don’t want it to come. I don’t want to acknowledge it. I don’t want to celebrate it. I don’t want to hear song after song about a baby boy. I just don’t want it. Not at all.  Even… Continue reading Words